Lately I’ve been thinking about time. It’s going by so fast. I’m scared I’m going to miss something.
I remember worrying about July. I had two Renegade shows and I knew it would be a stressful month for me. July is now long gone, August too! And here I am in September, worrying about the amount of shows I applied to for the fall and winter months. The season has not even begun and I’m already asking myself if I took on too much.
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And I know as soon as those November and December shows have passed I’ll be saying, Damn it’s already almost January?! Shit, I need to make some Valentine’s!
What I am really really learning lately about owning a small business is that it’s never ending. There’s always something to do, or plan, or prepare for. But right now my brain doesn’t want to think about the holiday. I’ve tried to brainstorm ideas for Christmas cards. My mind is just not there yet.
When I had my day job, there wasn’t so much worry when I felt uninspired. But now, when I find some valuable free time that could be filled with drawing, yet don’t feel motivated to grab that pen and paper, it scares me a little.
I know it will come with time. Yes, I’m worried about being late with the holiday line. But one thing I have learned is to not force creativity. When my ideas don’t come naturally, I wait. It’s the only way to create the best product I can.
Side note, does this blog post make no sense or what? I’m talking about time going too fast and then talking about waiting for the “right time?” This is what happens when I write a blog post first thing in the morning with no coffee.
To sum up: I am stressed about taking on too much work. And I am stressed out about not finding the right time to design new products to therefore create more work.
Still not making sense.
Please excuse me while I go back some strong coffee.